Step Two

(Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity)

"Came to believe" is the key phrase here, it takes time. There is no time frame for the steps, some people take longer to work through them and that is fine. I think I always believed in a power greater than myself, I was just pissed at it.

A lot of my thinking and behaviour was insane and I realized that right off before I ever got step one. Doing the same things over and over and hoping that this time it would be different. That is insane, as well as a lot of other behaviours and thinking, hating and resenting people hoping it would hurt them, meanwhile it was like drinking poisen and hoping they would die, that's insane.

Ending up in treatment centre after treatment centre and then convincing myself that it was ok to go back out and use drugs/alcohol again....downright nutty....but it seemed perfectly logical at the time of course.

It took me time to believe that a power greater than myself (God to me) would help me to start thinking rationally. There's no rush, this step takes time like all the others, (it doesn't work if you don't get step one though,no exceptions).